This past week was just too much for me.
I tried to socialize (even online) but I just couldn't get the energy, will and desire to do so. I didn't want to see anybody, to talk to anyone. When I wanted to be strong enough to smile, I was weak. So I hid myself from everyone. Even when I knew that there were people who would understand, I still isolated myself. I considered deleting my accounts in social networking sites. I left my phone unattended. The phone that brought me messages of Bob (August 5) and Sean's (August 6) passing. My brothers. Both warriors in their own silent ways.
We were supposed to celebrate Eme's birthday last August 6. Instead, we just stayed at home and drowned our thoughts in three liters of Coke.
I'm trying to get things back to normal. It's not easy.
I guess writing about what I feel is a start.
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